120 Days - Life Loves....

Well, I just did the calculation - 120 days into my quest to a healthier me.  I have faced challenges but not given up on the journey.  My knee has now been diagnosed as a torn meniscus - possibly it will repair itself; maybe it won't - either way I continue on.  The doctor has warned me not to take on any demanding athletic endeavours - jumping, running, jogging - that got an internal giggle out of me.  Really!  Looks like well chosen exercise to strengthen my quad's and a positive attitude is what is required.  Weight loss would also be in order - although this 300 plus pound doctor did not suggest that!

The Sun Will Come Up ......

As I listened - and, yes, I confess, sang along to - the familiar song from Annie this morning, I felt a smile building inside me and coming to the surface.  I had been revisiting my journals this morning also and that had set me on a path of counting my many blessings over the past three years.  It has been a long journey of self-discovery - a conscious decision to live authentically no matter what!  I have jumped into situations openly and lived life to the fullest while still giving myself permission to retreat into my still, small place when a respite was necessary.  I have made bad judgment calls, geat decisions and broken some debillitating patterns - all at the same time.  I have decided that that is life - the good, the bad and the ugly!  It has been such a wonderful, challenging and enlightening time.  I have dropped tons of heavy, ugly baggage.  I walk with a lighter step (although the PHYSICAL me is not much lighter!) because I am not carrying such a difficult load - I have started to figure out what belongs on my shoulders and what others need to carry themselves.  The very best realization is that being honest with myself about what I believe and what I don't believe has set me free from the bondage I placed myself in trying to be whatever everyone thought I should be!