Right Brain Activity Points

So, I joined Weight Watchers online again and have spent this week trying to figure out the points!  I am marking my days like I used to mark my hours when I worked full time. Not such a good habit. Numbers are OK but I can be overwhelmed with them sometimes. They tend to take on a mammoth size, growing like monsters until I am cringing under the dining room table, holding my fork in front of me like a weapon. Well, maybe not quite that bad. Still, I know I can't focus 100% on the numbers - weight, points, days, steps.

One thing I have learned this year is to spend some time in my right brain instead of camping in my left one! I worked in my left brain for 24 years and only took the occasional run at my creative side. Now that I can choose, I have started to play again. I am hoping that this will give me the motivation to fill my moments with "doing" instead of focusing always on my food. Of course, I do have to add a little activity in there to keep my joints oiled and keep me out of assisted living for a few decades, but, I plan on embracing fun - that is a BIG change for me! 

When I start getting serious about my painting or spend too much time agonizing over my writing, it will be time to try something else! So, how many Right Brain Activity Points is painting worth, anyway? 

Kidding!

Am I Willing?

The story continues; a sequel in draft form always evolving. Will she make it? What will happen? Oh, oh, there she goes again? Thump! Can we just rip the pages out of our life that we don`t like and put them through a shredder? Is there a re-write button that we can push to change the beginning or the middle - those rocky parts where the heroine trips and falls and, then, just sits?

I have read this blog from beginning to now and I have decided that the place to start is the ending, not a new beginning. Knowing where it started is important, but agonizing over the details is fruitless. The story is a continuum of breaths. Each inhalation and subsequent exhalation are called life. One without the other is death. There is a continuing, a growing, a reaching that does change the plot, the twists, the curves, the drama, the pain but the element of a satisfying life story is determined by choosing the ending and sticking to it. The telling is the how.

I set out on this blog to write a new ending for my life. An ending that would see me living my authentic self,  as healthy as genetically possible, enjoying my family, seeking new adventures and someday, rocking by a warm fire, content with the ending of a life well lived. Being authentic has a great deal to do with the final contentment. The question remains: what I am willing to suffer to make that happen?

Stay tuned!

Square 2

So Square 2 follows Square 1 - months later of course.  If one thing has not changed within me that is my tendency to procrastinate along with a little writer's block from time to time.  If you have been following me in my retirement blog, Boomers Pot of Gold,  you will already know that the creative juices have been flowing all winter - but through water colours and not my pen or laptop.  I have been writing but focusing on stories and "other things" not blogs. But enough of the excuses.

Today's inspiration comes from a recent essay that has been circulating online titled "Should you live for your resume or your eulogy?"  It is  also the topic of David Brooks Ted Talk  if you are interested!

My children have always been an inspiration to me over the years.  I have learned so much from them just through observation.  This concept about using your weaknesses to build your strengths is lived out in real life as a parent.  Recognizing even in my cute little toddler with the golden locks and big blue eyes that her stubbornness and the recurrent stamping of feet that accompanied it could be coached and trained into a tenacity that would stand her in good stead as she faced the many adult challenges down the road kept me optimistic and hopeful.  This child of mine also faced down a physical limitation that she chose to believe had no limits.  Her battle was one that inspired adults and children blessed enough to know her.  I am still thrilled to see that goodness that shines (not just from that childhood battle!) - she lights up my life with it!

I am sure you have met one or two of those special people in your journey as well - the ones who shine with their goodness without really seemingly trying.  Don't be fooled!  It is because of their battle that the light is so bright.  When we do face our weakness - our signature sin as referenced by David Brooks or a physical weakness that threatens to destroy us - we can wrestle with it, suffer from it, and by so doing, develop the depth of character that would be eulogy-worthy.

In his essay The Moral Bucket List, Mr. Brooks compares this journey to having "moral adventures" that will lead you closer to becoming that kind of person that has a goodness about them that is not based on success or any other outward achievement but founded instead by steadfastly making that humility shift from star to humble human while confronting daily those weaknesses that are ingrained in each of us.  None of this can be done in isolation.  No, not even you can defeat those signature sins that are at the core of your being all alone.  The strongest among us (often especially them!) need "redemptive assistance from others."

I especially relate to Mr. Brooks comments about the Conscience Leap - stepping outside of the norm for your life, your peers, your belief system - to embrace what seems right, true and authentic for you. This will require moving beyond the safe, straight & narrow dictated by your fears or self-imposed barriers and choosing what is right for you- not what should be or could be but "IS". This concept lines up with my initial statement when I started writing this blog regarding authenticity - it is ingrained in my journey.

But, today I must accept that humility is the building stone that can move me closer to that goodness I see shine in so many others that touch my life.  I see that connecting and not going it alone are as important as being real.  I need a "moral adventure!"  Want to journey with me?